Yes it is my fault, and I even figured out why it kept happening. I play this game with a controller, because a wrist injury keeps me from being able to use a mouse for any stretch of time. Sometimes I play it with a friend on discord, because I am using a controller I got a keyboard in my lap and hit spacebar as a push to talk button. Apparently spacebar is the thing on the keyboard you hold to confirm this stupid god damn prompt. it never crossed my mind this was a thing though because spacebar by default is also jump, and I had long rebound that, the problem is apparently that does not remove it's bind as a confirmation button; nothing does apparently. I played this game for 60 hours completely oblivious to this until I started noticing hours and hours of money randomly vanishing, I never even noticed the survival timer resetting which means every time I did it was probably close to the end of the countdown meaning I was not just pissing my gold away without realizing it, I was pissing it away for ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
that being said, I can take responsibility for my own fuck ups, but this mechanic shouldn't even be there at all, and seems to only exist to eat an egregious amount of player gold either through error or poor priorities, no sane player ever intentionally uses it, EVER.
losing a match in this game is not that critical.
I could just suck it up and deal with it. and in a game that wasn't already full of pure nonsense mechanics I would, but this was the straw that broke the camels back for me, the level power scaling, the double RNG system for unlocking guns, the negligible rewards for winning against players over bots, the same awkwardly voiced cutscenes playing over and over and over and over, the obvious grindwalls that only exist to try and wear out your patience and get you to whale out and just buy gold, and countless other little inexplicable design decisions all put together, it's just too much.
I WANT to love this game, I WANT to get other people in it, but these mechanics decisions; Murcurysteam almost seems to want people to find reasons to not play this game.